you lower the IQ of the whole street

EDIT: My plans had to be postponed; details here

My current life is rather shitty to say the least. I feel like I’m trapped, powerless and worthless. I live in four walls which never meant ‘home’ to me (actually I’ve never even had my own room), with people who don’t feel like family at all and who suck all the energy out of me. It took me a lot time, courage and effort to finally try to change my situation. Because believe me, it was and still is not easy. 

At the end of September I will be moving to another country (why not just another city? Because I want to leave everything far behind me, also in the litteral meaning) and hopefully I will be able to breathe again, to make my life worth living at last. I am a bit afraid - finding any kind of job and an affordable flatshare won’t be easy and I am scared I might fail. Deep inside I am very insecure and my self-esteem is pretty much non-existant. But I know it must be done because what I have now is just biterness, pain and emptiness.  I am going to start my life from scratch. Just me and 42kg of luggage the airline allows me to take. I have no idea how I’m gonna do it. 

There is one more very prosaic problem - money. The only thing taken care of so far is the plane ticket. After buying that, the rest of my savings will probably allow me to pay one month’s rent (if I am very very lucky). And that’s it. The bad news is that many people want two months rent to be paid in advance (or/and a possible deposit?). And sadly I also have to have money for food…

I’m trying my best to find some money in every possible way, that is why I’ve decided to ask you guys for some help. I feel bad asking, I know I’ve probably done nothing to deserve your help… I wish I was talented so I could just draw/paint/sculpt/make something in any other way in return, but well, I’m a useless human being with no talents. So…

There are 3 ways you can help me, 2 of which won’t cost you a single penny

• take a look at the top of my Tumblr and figure out what you can do [please do click here for a hint & a piece of advice]  
• reblog this post (Tumblr will make you reblog it as a link - please change it to ‘reblog as text’ - you can do that at the top of the reblogging page)
• donate via PayPal - thewholestreet2012(at)gmail.com (every donation helps, even the tiniest one)  

I’m sorry again for asking, but if you decide to help me a bit in any of the ways shown above - thank you in advance! 

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